Wednesday, March 10, 2010
I also want to apologize if I haven't been much of a phone person lately. I know it seems to all of you that I have nothing but time on my hands to chat, but I am so mentally spent everyday just trying to get through the day that I really have got no strength for small talk... I am feeling incredible mental attacks the last few weeks. I rarely sleep and when I do i have horrible night mares. My room is right by the nurses station and they are so load at night that when I do fall asleep a get woken up every 10 minutes, along with being woken up (not exaggerating) about 7 times a night for checks by Doctors and nurses... OVER IT. So I am really just trying to get through each hour and honestly just don't have any energy to talk. But I love and miss you all and am soooo grateful for all the thoughts, prayers, packages, help with Luca, help with moving, diners and everything else we have been so blessed with.
The Doctors tell me 30 weeks is really great for someone in my condition. I am one of the very few and lucky ones that has made it this far. At 32 weeks the baby's brain is pretty much sealed so his chances of being perfect are about 90% or more! That's less than 2 weeks away! I think I can handle that. Unfortunately even at 34 weeks there's a 70% chance of him having to stay in the NICU for a month or so... Soo sad. Jimi and I took a tour of the NICU levels 2 and 3. the babies are so small it doesn't even seem real. One lil guy we saw was 30 weeks, 3 lbs, 13 inches and the nurse said that's a really good 30 weeker! Insane. His lil foot looked like one of Lucas dolls. Another one we saw was 35 weeks and he had IVs and breathing machines and was still sooo small. If anyone ever has extra time on their hands please pray for these lil fighters and their Mommys. It is such a scary place. It seems so unfair that God would let a lil baby be in that much pain the second they enter the world. I can only pray that my lil man will be one of the lucky ones that can go home soon after delivery. I mean God has done so many miracles why stop now right?
Everything else is still the same. I'm 30-2 today. If I make it to 34 they will induce me. At the moment he is head down and i can do it naturally which is so nice to hear. I DO NOT want a c-section. The last thing I need is to get out of here after 3 months and still not be able to hold Luca. So hopefully this kid will cooperate in one way and stay head down! I am having a shower on the 21st and that's exciting. Have some friends around and get all prepared for this lil guy to make his debut.
So Goal for now is making it 32 weeks. Thats March 22. Anything after that is just icing!
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
-30 weeks I get to go outside for 30 minutes a few times a week! this is a huge deal because I haven't left my room for over 6 weeks. Only 6 days away!
-31 weeks Luvi is coming to do my hair! another super exciting thing because at the moment Im looking pretty nasty.
-32 weeks Im having a baby shower!
-33 weeks only one week left until baby comes! His chances of being completely normal at this age is like 90% so that is also a huge thing!
-34 weeks lil man arrives!
Silly maybe for you all but for me its the small things that get me through the week.
Other than that nothing to excited going on here. I've become obsessed with The Office! I cant believe I never saw a signal episode until last week : )
Thank you all for the continued prayer. We still needs a lot more to get us through the next few weeks. And we still need tons of prayer for the baby because even at 34 weeks theres no guarantee he'll make it. soooo PRAY PRAY PRAY please!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I am trying to keep you all as updated as possible but I'm losing my mind and so I can not even be bothered to go on the computer most days.
I did make it to 28 weeks as of yesterday! So awesome. Unfortunately still a lot of badness at this age so we need to keep praying that he says in the oven. If I make it to 34 weeks they will induce me because its a lot more sketch to keep him in than to take him out. So we will be 4 no later than April 5th!
Since I did make it to 28 weeks I'm starting to have a lot more hope. I have been trying to stay positive but its very hard to get attached to something that has such a huge chance of not making it. But I am trusting God with all my heart and am really starting to get into the baby thing. I even agreed to have a shower at the hospital and started registering! Seeing all that lil baby stuff is making me remember how much I love babies and actually WANTED one before all this. I have basically been terrified of babies for 5 weeks now, so its about time to start getting ready.
So just anther week over here... Im running out of books so if anyone knows of anymore good ones send them my way : )
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Everything is still stable... Im so bored and over this...
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
luckily for me Luca brings some sweet surprises when she comes.
The other day Jimi took her to market and when he came back said, "Naomi, it was so crazy, Luca must have been hungry because she grabbed a block of cheese and started chewing on it plastic and all". So I said, "well Jim what did she have for lunch?" Jim's face said it all... Luca had not had lunch. So she took her nutrition into her own hands and eat a half block of cheese! Just straight non organic block of cheese!
Later that night Emily came to pick Luca up just in time for Luca to projectile vomit all over the hospital room about 7 times! Poor dreamer! And poor Emily having to clean up after a kid thats not even hers! Good friend man!
Well thats about all the excitement in my world.
I am a rupture not a slow leak like they thought a week or 2 ago because this week Ive been leaking and spotting again. So please keep the prayers coming. I was forbidden by Jimi to google, but I disobeyed yesterday and I googled. I googled BIG time. And now I am of coarse terrified! Never should have done it! pregnant woman should not use the internet.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
But at 1am on January 17th as we sat scared and alone in a Florida hospital I heard a sweet slip of the lips, and TADAAA I WON! Jimi told me "of coarse his name is Embry babe" "you just keep being strong and we will name our son Embry"! All it took was a quick water break and an extended vaca in hospital and poof I get my wish!
Well as I have been laying here in hospital and have Dr.s, nurses, specialist, and NICU workers come and tell me what this lil guy is most likely in for, I'm rethinking the name! I imagined 'Embry' going to Yale and possible being a word renown genius with such an extraordinary name. I do not however see 'Embry' as the type of boy who is a fighter. And that is what he needs to be. So Yale will have to wait on this one, I'm living in the moment and naming my boy a strong name! No sucker punches on the play ground for this kid! And hopefully after some years, Ill have gotten over this excruciating time in our lives, and start the hunt for leather woven shoes and settle on Harverd for my lil fighter.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
The other night Jimi and I were really missing Luca and decided to have her stay the night in hospital with us. Well Jimi didn't want to bring the pack&play cause he thought it would take up to much space and so he decided that he and Luca would sleep on his fold out cot. now Jimis cot is a lil couch that folds out into a twin size bed with a mattress from about 1973. I felt this was a bad idea but hey its his rest right? I remember in the middle of night getting up to use the bathroom and seeing Luca comfortably sprawled out on the bed and poor lil Jim clinging to the bottom corner of the mattress curled up so small I almost got them confused! Hilarious! Well the next morning I heard sad lil girl crys and when I looked over it was Jimi. apparently Luca had woken up taken off her diaper went back to sleep and wet the bed! when I say wet the bed, I mean wet Jimi since they were sleeping so close! Poor Jimi Storey...
If Luca stays from now on she will be sleeping in the Pack&play.
well Monday is officially 25 weeks! I will have been here for... almost 16 days at that point! 16 days sitting in the same bed, not leaving the same room, starring at the same wall, and being away form my baby. This is how people go insane... The Dr. said I can get wheeled outside at 30wks... thats 5 weeks away. OMG!
A Better note is that Embry(if thats his real name) is looking good. No signs of stress, infection, or loss of more fluid. We'll be able to tell a bit better when I have my next ultrasound. But for now hes being a good lil fighter. Please continue to pray that he stays in there until at least 30wks, is healthy, strong, smart, normal and can come home soon after deliver.(wherever home might be by then!)
I really want to keep thanking everyone for all your thoughts, prayers, food, packages, donations, cards, flowers, and help with Luca. We're so lucky to have friends and family like you guys : )
Well the exciting part of my day is about to begin... SHOWER! it is what a look forward to most of all. i get to stand for like 5 minutes! and im in a different room! granite its within the same room im always in but hey its a different wall in front of me for a few minutes!
My dear friend Tonya is flying down from PA tonight for a few days so that should be a lovely change of pace!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Last night my nurse said that I may just have a leak and not totally ruptured. This can be good because the hole or tear can heal itself and I could possible carry to full term or close to it. There is no real way to tell and in either case I still need to be in hospital on bed rest, but the news made me not terrified of my own body today! Jimi spent the conversation texting, while Louis asked tons of important questions than I didn't even think of! Hilarious! Way to step up Godfather! And his dream of a girlfriend made me my fav pasta salad so I will actually eat lunch this week. The hospital food is so bad here that I lost weight this week. Dont worry ill be gaining it all back as I eat a lb. of pasta this afternoon!
I have a nice weekend to look forward to. Thanks to my dreamy inlaws Jenny&Tracy, and generous church, Emily is starting her drive down this afternoon to nanny for Luca while Im in here. It makes me feel so much better to know she will be on a nice routine and not be juggled around or in day care. I feel so incredible blessed to have such amazing family in my life. If there is anything I am seeing while in here, it is that God always provides in abundance for my family. I have seen it over and over again in my life, but when it comes to my daughter it just brings it to a new level.
Thank you all for the cards, flowers, and packages this week. My dear friend Abby sent me a book that I am excited to get back into this afternoon, and my dad, Jason&Dana and my church sent cards and flowers. So much cheer in this dismal hospital room.
Well I have to go send Luca off with Jenn for the day.
Please keep the prayers coming our way, and a safe drive for Emily.
Monday, January 25, 2010
this is a big deal. one more week to 25!
everything is looking good. Im done with my antibiotics and steroids... unfortunately I am still in hospital... its just so hard to be away from Luca. and when she is here she doesn't want to be, because shes a baby I know, but its just so hard.
I think I just need to sleep today.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
so mark your calenders and start praying for March 5th to be the soonest this lil man arrives. that is 43 days away! a lot better than 80 or whatever I was thinking before. My exhausted, scared, and hormonal math skills should be ashamed of themselves.
well today is the first day that Jimi has spent the entire day with me in the room and you would think hes been here for a month. Every time he complains, I can not help but wanna kill him. i mean come on ive been here for a week straight while hes been here for a few hours. boys! but really he has been so amazing, sleeping on the worst foldout I have ever seen every night and then having to work and take care of Luca. I married well above what I deserved : )
Luca is having a party at her friend Gavin's house this weekend. Jimi forgot to pact her clothes so shes been a tomboy for once! she probable loves it. so over all the dresses I make her wear day and night!
Well today has not been to bad. Its so nice to have company.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
anyway as of now another day down 74 to go. at least... maybe I shouldn't ask a Dr. because even 1 more day to that count is overwhelming...
No infection showing up today and no contraction. oh and I finally got the most amazing nurse to take out my iv! It may be the best thing to happen to me since this started! I can at least sleep now and i dont taste medicine in my mouth all the time. They did however start me on steroid shots to try and speed up the babys lung development, so dont worry im not getting off to easy. I feel like I got punched in the butt, and considering all I do in lay on my butt, well lets just say it blows. Its like being affrraid of your own body with this mess. Every time i feel him move im scared, everytime i pee im scared. im just scared
I got beautiful flowers today from Deon and Erica. so lovely. its amazing how getting a package cheers the entire day up. my first day here my dear friend Shanda sent me flowers when I had only been in the room for about 4 hours. by day 2 Bethany got my a netflix subscription, flowers and birthday balloons from John and Jenn, hair products from Luvi and birthday gifts from Jenny and Tracy(Jimis parents), plus we've had dinner delivered almost every night : ) I feel so blessed to have so much support. most of all thank you all who are taking care of my baby. Angela has been taking her in the day, she sleeps at Lou and Kristens every night, and everyone else has either taken her for a bit this week or has plans to take her soon. I feel like I am half assing it as a mom because im stuck here trying to take care of Embree( should we spell it Embree or Embry?) and cant take care of my daughter who is here now. walking around needing her mama... impossible hard.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Well im not very good at journaling but I thought in this circumstance it might be time to give it a go…
Im on day 4 of my hospital stay here in Orlando fl. Let me do a quick recap.
Sunday morning around 1 am I woke up soaking wet and knew something wasn’t right. Jimi suggested I peed the bed of coarse he thought it was sooo funny and wantd to tell everyone. After calling my Dr. back in PA we rushed to the hospital where after hours of bad news after bad news about what the likely outcome would be, I was admitted on strict bed rest in the perinatal high risk unit until I have the baby. What happened was my water broke at only 23 weeks. Until a baby is 25 weeks its considered more cruel and dangerous to try and save it than to just let nature take its coarse. Well like I said Im at day 4 today. 12 days left until I get to the official 25 week marker. Im on about 9 trillion antibiotics iv drips and get visited by all the special Dr at least once a day as well as my normal Dr., residents, and nurses doing constant checks on me, my uterus, and the baby ( whos name I believe to be Embree)
As of right now the biggest scare is in the next 2 weeks. Please pray that no infection in the uterus occurs or I go into pre-term labor.
Jimi has been a rock dealing with everything so I can focus in on going crazy in a hospital bed! Luca is staying just about 3 min away with Kristen and Louis. We are overwhelmed at all the help we've been offered and received with Luca. She is of corse our main concern. We'll need to hire someone to watch her on more full time bases soon but for now our basses are pretty much covered.
Thank you all so much for the Food, flowers, support, child care, and prayer . It is unbelievable how much support we feel around us. I'm especially touched considering this isn't even my home town.
My goal in life right now is to not deliver until about April 5 at the least. Thats about 75 days... OMG ahhhh....
A few People have asked where we are so heres my new address.
Florida Hospital Orlando
601 E Rollins
Orlando Fl 32803
One last thing for now because I have some Dr. coming in...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GODFATHER LOUIS!